talk to strangers (excerpt]

...so I continued to explain about the way that he'd engage, his body language, & how his mind strikes me as the kind to always change. of course, nothing stays the same. & he wondered why it was that he seemed so out of touch.. "& well to me, it's no secret that you never get out much." He said I had him read and it stemmed from lack of trust.. & I assumed he had addictions 'cause the way he acted different.. I told him loosen up & asked what vice he had prescripted. "do you have time to listen?" He asked how I knew him so, & if there was something he was missing. "I guess, I just trust my vision, & follow up on intuition & you seem nice, but reply with pride, and too much contradiction.." My mind was truly flooded with plenty more things to say.. Instead I apologized, 'cause his eyes said he was fine before life made him this way.. He said it's ok, plus he's numb to all the pain he once felt.. But he hates this life and deep inside he was ashamed of himself.. All the while still consistent with each of these contradictions.. & I wished he'd face his sadness rather than just resist it...

What's causing all this misuse of power? it seems we're easily devoured 'cause these streets were never ours.. I think it's duty to strip us of our beauty by these mislead cowards &.. kill us with no shame even during day hours. & though I wouldn't wanna be them, & rather not see them, they get this pass, so I just ask... what happened to decent community policing.. ? Pat a pig on his back and he reacts and says he was attacked w. treason.. Treason? is that a good enough reason to use your pride to guide your sight? & forget God's plan, cause now it's in your hands, so you think it's fine to take his life? Maybe there's not enough cells to be packed in, or did intimidation say his boys would've backed him.. ? Plus you just saw black men judging all that you lacked in.. So you abuse authority against youths and minorities, then you call it war to ensure that there's no more of we.. But really you lack maturity.. and I'm convinced, it's common sense.. You use abuse as your defense, cause kids were cruel in school and you could use this boost of confidence.. So you confuse this rage with these dues that do get paid.. By another youngin slayed & to you the day is saved..