Inspired by Tupac: "Love is Just Complicated"

You ask me to communicate, what it is I feel within.. I search for words to assist, but how can I express that this is what was best? I think we grew apart, 2 different hearts.. & though I was into you, this was difficult from the start. Now I'm contemplating, maybe this could've waited. & my anxiety's debating, saying I should've saved it.. But I guess love is just complicated.

Love

Is 

Just

Complicated 

I thought I knew my heart's desire, but I can't take it, I'm losing my patience & I could use new winds because I'm hinged within this fire.. "A" was wrong for leading me on.. Knowing he had a family back home.. & he was keeping us alive by sacrificing time, while she would be alone. He said he could put in all his effort, & she won't do him any better, so that relationship was severed, plus, nothing lasts forever..  So I was all he needed me to be, consistently.. But I began to see, "A" was just too mixed up with "B".. Plus "C" says he's still not done with me.. But I wish he was because, he seeks his gains by causing me pain, and overlooks the fact that I think he needs to change.. so eventually, I gave "A" back to "B", and unfortunately they ended, it seems we caused such an interference with our affair, that theirs couldn't be mended. & "C"? "C" needs to get a grip, he's losing his mind, he resorts to telling lies, & anywhere he confides, he says I hurt his heart, as if he didn't break mine.. He says it's my fault he & other women can't advance.. & he even rants thinking it'll cause them to believe him & me to regret leaving him, but I feel there's just no chance..  Plus I'm not infatuated.. & can no longer maintain this flame I created, & after causing all this hatred, I guess it's safe to say that.. Love is just complicated 

Love 

Is

Just

Complicated 

Jimi

We've gotta stop meeting like this.. I experience a gift on my psychedelic trips, & unless we coexist I guess these lips will go unkissed. I lay in disarray & put my thoughts up in the air.. with you as background music, it's like your tunes play through my hair. Why come all this way if I can't save us from the grief? and.. could it be just my fate to be contained into this being? I ask you if you're free & you agree yet you're confined, you said if I give up, it's like I'm leaving you behind.. then a force erupts & it's almost unexpected.. these instruments are bleeding, and the feeling is electric. I get lost within this daze, while I'm riding out your wave, knowing when this all ends, again, reality will change. & is it for the better? The room collides.. pool, darts, red lights - it's like this basement shifts into your era. Our interaction's interrupted, & another introduction was abducted by discussion. Why is it when I'm close to love I feel your presence visit? i stayed and  prayed to stars so long that day replaced my vision. Should I up my doses so this potency is stronger? & close my eyes, ride out this flight, & hope our visits will be longer.. 

The memory is fond, you brought stardust to my sight.. & now when daybreak comes I look forward to the night.. a wavy little trip that brought healing to my scars.. this vacation gave me placement as I skipped amongst the stars, & connected with my heart.. now I'm wishing for your visits the minute that we depart.. but was I just created for my own simplification? ..to recognize myself, perhaps, an act of desperation? I question meaning between meetings with the hope to try and solve it.. like why it moves me deep inside when you reply in comets.. or use force.. & do you think I'll navigate the sky if I comply with source? & when I search within & in the very bends of truth.. & I seek with sober eyes just know that I remember you.. 

Heaven's Ridge

My dear heaven I hope you're listening.. to my heart's desires hidden within the hymns it sings.. so long it's played a tune that's left me zoning and confused & after taking time, it seems it's crying out for you. & I'm not one to pick and choose but what I've seen in you is deemed the purest of my views. & the synchronism's strong with every day that passes on, so I think I'm meant for change in this place that I belong. 

Those That Know, Know (Part 1)

I'm a moving confusion, creating waves as they enter me.. adding contributions to this illusion, tryna make sense of me. if this is what I'm meant to be.. how can I limit this living to a third density? & not go out in flames, ascend my soul through rebirth & leave this earth my name.. this life like a game, I'm playing on vibration 'til I've understood its frame.. & I just want to touch these skies, within this pupil shift because the stars became my eyes. Maybe I'm searching for higher highs.. with belief that I will see it when the lost become the wise.

Those That Know, Know (Part 2)

& we rid ourselves of limit and let our hearts be free, I experienced divinity, and infinity was me... Will I make it to the most highest? & if I master mind can I shine amongst the enlightened? 'cause I looked into my future and saw the God that I entailed, I witnessed my existence and left speckles of its trails.. & saw snapshots of my wishes in manifested visions, & I'm facing resonation through these synchronistic glitches.. & somehow they give me faith.. that the dreams will be still be vivid through my living as I wake... from this deepened astral state.. & you reflect within my movements, in all that I am fused with, like stardust and moon men.. how sad, with all that I am - I'm only human.