Symposium (excerpt)

my subconscious goes on missing you, but I'd rather commit to ridicule, than not complete this "we", & never find this me, that's within you. & ride out this life split in two.. I'm not sure how much longer I'm gonna last so just tell me who to ask.. Or plead with.. 'cause he and I were once one, & I really still believe it. & it's no secret. I don't even know what I'm doing, but the fact I seek his union shows I truly need it... & this woman's worth on this woman's earth, cannot be shunned, & will not be run without a man as sun, that lights the way for this woman's work. & as this motion stays in tune, together we'd create the moon.. the essence of his presence lingers on when he's gone from the room, & if his love is in the air, then I'm inhaling all the fumes.