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Where does our freedom go?
Standing in line
To feed off lies
I wouldn't risk it
Call me different
Spare my ticket 
To the ego show
& I forgive him
Cuz he don't know
How he's compromised his time
Gave up his life
To sow a money tree
But he won't grow. 
Am I wrong cuz I allow this?
I can't speak you out of
Nice cars and big houses..
to be free 
financially 
Might as well take a seat
Cuz that dream is crowded. 
I'm a masterpiece 
I'll master peace 
.. to say the least
Free from titles
No praise to false idols
Preparation for my elevation
I think I've solved it
Moving along 
and..
Defeating the grief of a revolving
Life cycle

Do I preach? Shall I teach?
I'm losing patience for wasted words
Beyond their concern,
No interest..
There's nothing earned 
So, listen.. 
just let 'em learn.
I swear I wanna be 
somewhere people know love & don't just fake the funk
No hateful tongues..
I wanna lay in bunks & meditate with monks..
Can you blame the ways that I'm skeptical?
I'm over timely schedules
We move so slow that
Everyone I know, 
Their goals.. are unethical 
& even identical 😕
And I'm sad for them
They look down on me cuz I'm not the same
Slandered and shamed
& I still feel bad for them 
It's a life contest..
How lame, 
I'm moved by pain, 
Or much less, I confess
So what comes next? 
for another being stuck, struck with Christ complex..

you understand like no one else could do
I see spiritual wealth in you.. 
universal residue.. 
but what else is new? 
I mean, 
you're a gem to me.. 
essentially, 
you're sent for me.. 
but I can only see 
who you could be, 
potentially. 
Something here is odd, 
God's working in our favor,
& though time keeps us apart
I see the synchronism's major..
Maybe if we wait, pain will pass without a visit,
& maybe at this pace
I can love you from a distance..
Plus I'm a sucker for the chase
So keep your bait
Or I'll be hooked..
Having patience for our fate
I write to you within my book.

Letter 2B

the simple space between placement, can feel so distant.. & make dull of the elated, but be brave because time is fabricated, and really non existent.. & don't tame who you was.. nor blame it on love.. cuz even downfalls are what change is made of.. though it comes in stages.. & I've bared witness to plenty ugly rages.. but nothing tops the tear drops of those locked up in cages.. makes me wanna do the time for you.. Are those the notions too? I've become emotional to crime, is it cuz I'm crying.. for you? Is there justice in a verdict, by the judge who hasnt heard it? Lawyers twist your words & isolate the undeserving. & I swear it breaks my heart.. Cuz they'll convict a loving soul that's been gifted in the arts. It truly makes me wonder.. if we're ever really free out here, or just another number.

How do I reach you? my existence is slipping through this plane.. & I'm gripping to these visions - if I didn't, then they'd fade.. i guess I fear loss in the source of my direction.. so I cling to what I have & just add to my obsessions.. by now there's more than I can manage.. yet before I drop the weight I'll just take the lack of balance.. with hope that it subsides, & still I will provide everything I've been denied, before another is deprived. & that's no way to live.. how can I harm myself yet be so selfless when I give? 

House Of Mirrors

I guess the truth is uncomfortable.. because illusions are safe, so when I spoke against hate, I became less lovable. We were on the edge of bliss, so what started this? I had nothing but my heart to give and yet I'm caught in a perpetual argument. & it pertains to growth, something that's lacking in whom I love the most. So is this why you're rejecting my affection? Feels like I'm dying inside, but thank God my pride provides the worst kind of protection. While in need of you.. & to cope this cloak will need to do.. until I get tired of swallowing desire.. since I get pushed aside.. & if you're expecting the questions.. my attention is denied. woe is me, I guess I'll never truly get you.. you give me parts of pieces, still I'm eager to accept you. & I can't say it's desperation... just my lack of forgiveness causing me to cling to this over-claimed hatred. 

Inspired by Tupac: "Love is Just Complicated"

You ask me to communicate, what it is I feel within.. I search for words to assist, but how can I express that this is what was best? I think we grew apart, 2 different hearts.. & though I was into you, this was difficult from the start. Now I'm contemplating, maybe this could've waited. & my anxiety's debating, saying I should've saved it.. But I guess love is just complicated.

Love

Is 

Just

Complicated 

I thought I knew my heart's desire, but I can't take it, I'm losing my patience & I could use new winds because I'm hinged within this fire.. "A" was wrong for leading me on.. Knowing he had a family back home.. & he was keeping us alive by sacrificing time, while she would be alone. He said he could put in all his effort, & she won't do him any better, so that relationship was severed, plus, nothing lasts forever..  So I was all he needed me to be, consistently.. But I began to see, "A" was just too mixed up with "B".. Plus "C" says he's still not done with me.. But I wish he was because, he seeks his gains by causing me pain, and overlooks the fact that I think he needs to change.. so eventually, I gave "A" back to "B", and unfortunately they ended, it seems we caused such an interference with our affair, that theirs couldn't be mended. & "C"? "C" needs to get a grip, he's losing his mind, he resorts to telling lies, & anywhere he confides, he says I hurt his heart, as if he didn't break mine.. He says it's my fault he & other women can't advance.. & he even rants thinking it'll cause them to believe him & me to regret leaving him, but I feel there's just no chance..  Plus I'm not infatuated.. & can no longer maintain this flame I created, & after causing all this hatred, I guess it's safe to say that.. Love is just complicated 

Love 

Is

Just

Complicated